call me by a different name

∞ i have been having vivid dreams. sometimes, i am in my own bed. sometimes, i am in a bed i have never seen. with white sheets and white blankets. everything is white. but every time. there is someone standing over me. looming over me. sometimes the person i see clearly. other times, it's just an aura.
∞ i feel distant. just going through the motions. not really projecting myself into anything of importance.
∞ love is a peculiar emotion. because most often, one person loves the other a lot more than the other. or maybe. not more, just differently. not the same. not as passionate. {maybe i just don't have that in me. maybe i am not made that way. considering i have never felt it.} and where do we go from there.
∞ where do we go from there. when life is so off track. from where you thought ... want it to be. should have, could have, would have.