i'm missing something huge.

its not about the poetry anymore.

its not even about understanding me anymore, or relaying what i'm thinking. its not about what you see in what i'm feeling or about the one beautiful thing i said in that paragraph.

its turned into a lot of jumbled logic and all the ways that i am supposed to think and feel. its turned into missing the things that gave me that rush of feeling unique and special.

i'm not always this negative. i never used to be. maybe it's just because everything was so much easier to say when i was fifteen.

Y heart,
christina megan.