revel

i am insecure. i don't say what's on my mind but i expect others to know. i adore books written by sarah dessen. i'm horrible at history and sciences. i'm good at english and math. i'm restless with my life. i am extremely emotional and can be needy. i hate the concept of soap operas but i love general hospital. once a year on the same day, i go outside and bury my hands in the dirt. i appear to be untrusting but almost anyone can make me cry. i have a child's impressionable nature. writing is my emotional outlet. i drive around aimlessly with the music blasting when i am angry, or i obsessively clean. ::withdrawn:: i'm both sensitive and sarcastic at the same time. i haven't met anyone yet who understands my sensitivity. i tend to be secretive, but i don't mean to be. i've had a bestfriend named *k a t i e* since we were eleven. i like to wish on stars and i still believe in fairy-tales. i don't try to reach my full potential. i'm not social but i adore my friends. i go to suny cortland. i admire children but they sometimes are intimidating. i was raped when i was fifteen. i won't go down dark streets. i haven't felt - safe - since fifteen left me. i'm afraid of history repeating itself. i'm easy but not in a slut-way. i hate confrontation (i think most people do). i love watching movies. i'm affectionate and live to cuddle with boys. i sleep walk and sometimes i wake up screaming. i sleep best when its raining and i love to photograph the rain. there's nothing better than someone kissing my cheek. i've been in love, but i'm not impressed. i love the stars.